I am feeling lost every time I try and write... this is a different feeling than the ones I have had before.
Everything feels weak. I tried not to write for a week, and it has hurt rather than helped.
It’s hard to describe, it’s like trying to cook but everything looks horrible and tastes even worse. I've always been able to see the silver lining in what I do, but I just can't seem to get the groove back.
Maybe I am just trying too hard. Maybe I should rest longer than a week.
Or maybe I should do just the opposite and just write my way out.
I have felt lost before and even felt like a hack… but I always got joy from writing even if I felt it didn’t work.
Rest assured I will never quit, but I hope this ends soon.
I really don’t know if I am asking anything specific—more or less I guess I am just sharing, praying for a sign… a glimmer… anything to jump start my brain back to the love of writing regardless of the outcome.
Sorry if you read this all and had to endure it. This is not who I am… maybe that’s why it digs so deep. I have never felt self-doubt about anything (other than about my writing)—now I am swimming in it.